Richard William Weiland Papers

Wednesday June 1

That long writing about EDITX is still very relevant from last Saturday. I still believe it. It does make me sad that I am not in a close group of people doing things, but maybe I'm just too lazy now. Or perhaps I have to spend more time to get where Bill already is. I think that is true. I will take a different route & then apply my business talents & desires to something, maybe software.

After lunch Sat May 28 I did errands down to Dataco to proof "Users Guide" & to barber to get shampoo. Then at 4:30 to uSoft till midnight, except for dinner. Got all money matters out of way & determined a very severe cash flow problem. It began to worry me that I may not get paid from uSoft. I resolved to settle this with Bill before sleep. Watched Sat'day night & went to bed.

Sunday May 29 I went to Church missed school but saw movie. Then to breakfast at Goody's then home to change & got some things straightened out. Then went to store & off to Juan Tabo park, got there ~ 12:30. Enjoyed for 1 hour, then read for 2 1/2 the Advocate. Left at 4 for beach since horny & then at 5 to dirty movies. By 6 was done with that. So 2 hours or so were wasted. Then shower & dinner & at 7:30 read 3 Wall Streets till 8:30 then thought till 10 about how to get money from Bill & about intimidation in general. Talk w/ Chuck from 10 till 10:30. Then Bed.

Got to work Monday May 30 by 7:30. Worked out more bugs & OSI & left at noon for spa & lunch. 2-3 with Bill looking at Paul's deposition.

3-6 I was at Paull Mines. 6-8 I was back to Software 8-8:30 Dinner 8:30-10 Mines 10-11 Back to uSoft Bring up money problem to Bill. 11:30 Bed ------------------------ Tuesday May 31 7:30-8:30 Do Commo invoice + OSI (try!) 8:30-10:30 Mines 10:30-5:30 Deposition 5:30 -8 Chuck + bugs + fixes & OSI 8-8:30 Dinner 8:30-10:30 OSI problems got it running fine except for [up arrow C?] 10:30 Chip, Foxes, etc. --------------------------- Wed June 1 8:30-2:30, 3:30-6 work on special 6502 versions + miscellaneous stuff 6-8 exercise 8-9 listen to "America" on radio 9-10 Dinner + talk w/ Fred Bacon 10-11 home + write this.

So I think the last three work days really had to be spent at work. For Commodore's bugs & OSI's problems & new tape & deposition & its preparatory meetings. I made new list of stuff to do at work. STM is next. But tomorrow morning I will just do OSI & then mail it & be back around 3 or so to work. Gotta get some sun & call Ryan.

Talked w/ ADP lawyer yesterday. It looks like all is going well.

I am very concerned that the Dade County Coalition be victorious in the Miami gay ordinance vote. I have prayed about it a lot. The vote will be on the Queen's jubilee. I hope we can all celebrate. I have appreciated my freedom so much in the past 2 years, and have needed

it so much that I want to pray for other people to have the same opportunity. I would have been so unhappy recently if I had been unable to meet Chip K. He gave me a very moving card yesterday in which he expressed his deep emotion. I need to think about it. I think it may be good to let things go unsaid as Chip suggests, but I want to know what I need to do and not to do. I owe him so much. He has been so much better to me than I have been to him.

So we gays need to have freedom. We need to love just as straights do. For this reason I implore God to persuade voters in Dade County so that the vote can swing our way. It would be such a victory.

To bed now. More thought again tomorrow.

Thursday morning June 2. Think about money vs risk for EDITX from 9:30-12:45. Now I think somewhat differently from last Satday. The most important thing I've realized is that my desire to be responsible, at least somewhat, is quite strong. I like my industry & I want to be a part of it for a long time to come. It is true that I don't want to be as involved as Paul & Bill, but then I don't want to be one of the technical masses either.

The major question was whether to sell BASIC to RM or arrange coownership. If I sell it to them for some figure, like $30K at the very most, I would there after have little interest in figuring out risk of various ventures with it. I would be unhappy if it would have made more than $30K after some time has past.

Next I think personally now that if I have 65%

then I will get more than $30K in the long run. So long as I work for RM I don't need extra money so I may as well wait. $30K implies $45K total profit or $55K income which is only sales on 15 or so DEC-10s.

Next it would immoral to purport it to make more money than I think it will to justify my making $30K now if I have no problem with waiting. As I've said before it would only sit in a bank.

So if I want to try my hand at some level of success, then I must put myself into risk taking position. I will become more & more interested in that sort of thing as time goes on. I want some, not a lot, responsibility now because I want to play some too. But I don't want to play all the time.

It is also important for now for me to be one of the technical masses in friendship.

I don't ever want to be put on a pedastal. I am just making the most of my life as should everyone. I may have advantages but that also means I have a greater burden of potential to fulfill in order to be happy. I recognize this in Bill and I hope it will be seen in me by others who may not have the wherewithal to move so fast or in my direction. I hope they will see thier lives as a total being & that they can be happy in their reality as I am in mine. So I will try to be as friendly as I can with coworkers at R & M.

Another interesting thought was the staying at R & M for five years. That is their vesting period. I would be 29 then. Maybe H.B.S. then. Who knows. Thank God I don't have to decide that now.

Now 1:20 to Lunch

Satday June 4

Thursday afternoon 2-6 work on OSI & mail off. Then dinner at denny's. Read journals, 2 hours. Then "The Sting" after.

Friday 8-12 Made source changes for SYKES, Atari, STM till 9:30. 9:30-11, Swartz, OSI, balance my checkbook. 11-12, Snack, etc. more work. Sunbath till 1:50 at home. Then lunch at Farr's + go to bank. 3-4 at work. Can't do anything. Computer down. 4-7, snack, got gas & washed. Wash clothes, figure power - gas figure I owe Mark. Finish out checkbook. Get ready for evening. Get things straightened up & out. Change bedsheets. Wash car windows. Call Ryan Mc.

7-9 Dinner Francaise 9:30-11:30 "Autopsy" movie

Satday 12-1 Foxes 1:30-9:30 Sleep 9:30-10:30 guess 10:30-12:00 wash up, breakfast, shave, etc. 12-2 read 2-3 write Meg 3-4 write this.

Thursday June 9

Rest of Saturday went to spa then finished up some chores at home. Got to Chips about 9. Went to Puncho's for dinner & drove cars up to Crest.

Sunday June 5 went to flee market and to church & breakfast. Then to La Luz trail & up to the top. So thirsty by the time we got to the top. Then had prime rib & a couple beers. Walked mile & half to car & drove back. It was a welcome site. The hike was wonderful. Majestic craggy mountains strewn with evergreens. Even a babbling brook. Little flowers. & Big ones too. Have to go up about 2000 feet before real beauty starts. Full ascent is about 5000 feet. My own feet hurt like hell and I still have bad sores.

Then we drove home & listened to talk show about homosexuals. Pretty stupid callers. Got my car parked at base and then got ice cream and had brandy alexanders.

Monday, I worked 8:30 till