Richard William Weiland Papers

Friday night. It was funny how I stopped at a gas station to call 'em and they said they are across the street from U-haul which I was standing just next to! It was nicely designed inside but most patrons were patronly. Not many young guys. So I checked out the bars in P.A. They were pretty quiet and then went to the Bachelor Quarters where I met Danny who had a very nice young body. But personality conflict. He was not too bright but very social. He + lover were there.

Saturday I forced myself in by 9:00 AM and worked till quite late. Then up to SF. Went Castro and decided strongly against just a repeat of Sunday. So I asked where new bar on Height was. Very nice I-BEAM. Had 5 rum + coke that night. Drove like a maniac and went to baths. Laid hunky jock type. Then it got late but I finally got another good looking guy with good chest and legs. He was nervous but ok later. So I left at 5:30. Home at 6:30!

Worked from noon to 3:30 or 4, then to Spa + back up to SF. [Rainy?] I-beam on Sunday afternoon. Then the baths again and I got another good body Roy. Mexican face but strong chest + legs. Nice! Then back to H. Inn early + up early and back to work.

Should I try to cause my own growth (ie own my own business) or ride on others coattails? I have caused so much growth but I have little to show for it. But I have all I want right? Yes, for now. When you want more then work it out. For now I am satisfied with what I can earn as an employee.

Should I tithe? This year Oct 77- Sep 78 I have given 100+50 (at RMC), 66.75 (church offerings) + 50 (to Rex H) or just over $700. Should I give a lot more? I really don't know. All I gave the year before that was $100. And for the time before Jan 1976 I decided I needed to pay $1000 based on tithes. If I am to, then wish the spirit were there. But when you feel you're getting phoney letters from Rex, and it takes two months to get a reply from CCC, I really can't see that it helps. Their work had some meaning for me. But $8000 worht. I would be generous but I must think over the whole situation. I don't know how well

Thursday (cont'd) - There are some things special about it like Geography + desert landscape (Chip + I have experienced it all + we can always return to visit on long weekends) Weather. Snow + sunshine. Skiing close by. But snow and skiing close are low priority. Again, a visit would do. Fall is only time ABQ is really lots better than PA. In summer PA is better. Spanish/Indian culture/architecture. There is a lot of this in Calif. And it can be transplanted in our home to some extent. Including luminaries + pinan. Small town convenience. Palo Alto has this. Not like LA. This was all before breakfast! It made me feel like I could continue to be productive. 11:00 - Went to Macy Thanksgiving Day Parade. Walked to Plaza. Lunch at Beef + Brew nearby. 1:00 - Bought tickets to Da + got back on Gay establishments. 1:45 - Went home + saw Blazing Saddles which was a lot of fun. 3:00 - Studied the Gayellow Pages + read Time in the bathtub! Luxury. 6:00 - Dinner at Weinerwald (Sucks) and the show till 10:30 Explore 1) Wild Wood - also Main man - (upper West). They had desserts for Thanksgiving upper west side ~ 75th 2) Harrys (upper east ~ 80th) nice. Also dropped into Charlies [aorth???]. ok but no one there.

memory for facts. It is so much cleaner than writing and a lot handier. I would really like to be able to have more things at my immediate recall. I hope that with the structure I've given myself via HBS and the use of this book and the stability of my life here in O.C. that I can do this now. I will practice by memorizing poetry, writing it out to focus my attention.

There are then just a few things I will continue to work on

{ 1) Balance achievement + entertainment { [Noted later in red] KEEP A PLAY DIARY. 5/89 [/note] { 2) Improve memory. WORK { 3) Think and hold it all in mind { [Noted later in red] ARTICULATE, ELABORATE, ADVOCATE, { NEGOTIATE. [/note] { 4) Concentrate on other peoples self-image { [Noted later in red] BUT DON'T WRITE DUE TO SECURITY. [/note] { 5) Go for comedy, wit [Noted later in red] Still to do: 5/89! [/note]

But some things cannot change since they just aren't me 1) My [position???] on verbal/quant [Noted later in red] Not by reading since I don't like to seriously read [/note] 2) My [position???] compet/collab.

There is little I can do about these being as far down the learning curve of life as I am. I will never be good at making strategic decisions of a very broad nature, but I still think I can manage engineering.

There is one unanswered question. How can I expect to survive in a medium company managing people? I had the best OB teacher, Len Schlesinger. I guess I don't have to answer it but just be aware of it as opportunities come my way. Maybe mgt, maybe not.

HBS analysis of Chip ---------------------------[Noted later in red] We were in love in first half of 78. See his letters to me from Connecticut. [/note]

when I arrived at HBS I got homesick for Chip for the first time in seven months! I'd seen him in April and for a rather good week just before school started, but I can't say we were in love. And we didn't correspond much. He only sent me one rather moving letter Valentines + Easter cards (not moving) Harvard Congrats with a tear. Three factual letters concerning [the thing?] One other telling me to take it easy. He had a business phone and called me in the winter mornings sometimes. I called him too, but sent him no moving letters, while I was in Seattle. I did send him + the dogs Birthday cards Card saying have a little fun it's good for you; I remember; I had a little once Card about sitting on the can. I was very busy and we were just friends at most. Didn't think of Chip much till I got to HBS. And then I became very concerned. Desperate phone calls after week 3. Letter (mostly for his sake, I thought) after week 5: what is he drawing from life. Did I condescent? But I received his letter which was very heavy too, not prompted by mine; they crossed in the mail. I sent him Nat'l Onion in week 7 He sent me pictures + loving letter week 8 w/ anniversary greeting And he phoned me several times wk 7-9. he phoned on Monday before exams he phoned Tuesday of Valentines when everyone else did also Also "Forever yours" Thanksgiving card. Remember the long walk I took to think about Chip at end of week six, and end up getting laid. Pathetic, now I think about it.

FINANCES (Personal) summing up Mid Sept 1977 through August 1979, just before Harvard.

The following is copied from a statement I wrote up in early January 1978 about the period Mid Sept 1977 thru end of 1977:

Cash spent $1580 (from checks for Cash) Food by check $196.32 4 Electric payments 65.74 4 Car + NAC payments 982.52 4 Service charges by bank $10 3 Phone Bills 97.61 3 Rents 1275 Travel 701.90 (ABQ in Oct 77, SF for Halloween, [Philly?] for Thx, Seattle for XMAS) Misc 86.72 Car Repair 665.57 Insurance 359.60 Rex Humbard 150.00 Dentist 416 TOTAL = 6586.98

To check: RMC Income 7 * 610.76 = 4275.32 Bonus = 473.61 Medical Payments 500.52 6800 BASIC (final) 412.22 (see note in papers for details) ADP = 580.91 + 67.72 TOTAL = 6310.30 At start I had 701.74, at end 425.06 6310.30+701.74-425.06 = 6586.98

I have been working on such a system this summer using all of the info I have from the past 3 yrs to lay the foundation for the new book. Up until recently I had planned to fill up this area with the analysis as completed for the period 1/15/78 through 10/80, but I had a problem erasing the ink from the pages I screwed up and eventually ended up ripping them out. No great loss. Now I plan to have that be a living book by having it go back to 1/15/78 and be my current book. This way it will tend to be a much greater inspiration to use it as it was intended to be used.

To create it I have divided the period into four parts: ABQ, SEA, BOS, IRV. I did a categorization of expenditures into useful slots, using primarily the checkbooks of each period as the primary and limiting source of info. Then I combined the similar categories of each into one spanning the entire three year period. To keep accuracy I made sure I had accuracy between [not sure how to document symbol] categories and the checkbook for each period, and when I combined the categories I made sure that [symbol again] periods for each category was the same as it was before I combined them.

During the second week I got my Fin + BGIE midterm grades on Tuesday Apr 15 and also my MKG final grade on Thursday Apr 17 at 2:30 and then started to pack. Wednesday I went over + over the decision and spent time talking with Pat Light. But in any case I spent the next several days packing and went to the B-school show on Saturday Night Apr 19 with Bill. He took me on a tour of Harvard with Doris + her girlfriend from Atlanta that afternoon. Sunday wasn't too busy [AELparJ???] and Monday April 21, my birthday, was a holiday so I couldn't move to Bekins. Thought about decision again, went sightseeing at the Prudential Bldg, and told Len my decision. Then Tuesday, Apr 22, moved all my stuff to Bekins with Bill's car and settled everything administrative there at Harvard and was ready to fly (ESCAPE) on Wednesday Apr 23 morning. Off to California. Flight # 7 seat 7-21. "Great Santini." Was very smoggy on arrival but I was happy to be here. Dinner first night at Andres. Spent the next few weeks just finding a car, and apartment, a bank etc. Moved in to apt first week of May. Bought 280ZX first though during first week here paying $3000 down on Sunday Apr 27th on following reasoning: 1) Could pay $8000 for nice small car like Mustang or Capri ($6500-8500) or Scinreco ($8K). The difference in total cost is (1+tax)*3500 or about $3700. About $2000 of this will hold over next 3 years. $1700 or $600 per years is worth it for a very special personal car. 2) May be hard to get loan anywhere but through Garden Grove Datsun. 3) It is just what I want. I've wanted one for quite a while. AWESOME. 4) Lowest prices are cost + 199 is 11029 or cost + 5% is 10950 plus molding, rocker, fender 185 pin stripe 59 undercoat 59 ---303 so 11332 would be lowest. I paid 11700. Just $600 over cost!

5) I need creature comfort. RX7 has no power windows and Oldsmobile just isn't me. Only reason I put up with Datsun 510 is because its not mine + I know it will be gone soon. I need to have consistent lifestyle + strategy. Would be hard/expensive to trade in 510 later on 280ZX. 6) 280ZX is form + substance. A functionally good car, with sporty fun image. 7) Risk is not that high. Can always sell it for good price since I'm paying not much over cost for it. 8) Pontiac Sunbird is subcompact for the thrifty, "enormously practical." Ugh. Phoenix hatchback 8000-9500, Chev, Cad, Olds are all out, due to cheap, expensive, too stuffy respectively. Ford + Chrysler/Dodge have very poor styling. No power windows on RX7 + not a comfortable interior, but price is 10K. So I would have to pay at least $9K probably, for something close to what I want. 9) No overpowering reasons not to get a 280ZX. I like it. I can afford it. Is the $2000-$3500 savings worth the lack of excitement, especially since only half of that savings is consumed in 3 yrs. Just $50/month for excitement... 10) I want to set up an environment which is me. Which is more suitable: a 280ZX or Phoenix? Don't pimp yourself. I've worked hard. Now I deserve some fun. 11) I've always gone with intuition and it has worked pretty well. 280ZX is intuitive. 12) Experience of 280ZX will be heightened by that of Corvette earlier. Make use of it. 13) Been out a year so well-debugged 14) Competitive dealling with the 280ZX commodity + factory flooding market to build market. 15) Lots of travelling in Southern Cal.

Then the next Monday Apr 28 and Tuesday I drove around in the 510 a lot to find a good apt. Turned out that Irvine Co owns almost all of them. I was attracted to one in Irvine called Rancho San Joaquin. 1) Just what I need - den + bedroom. No kids. In fact that's why it became available. Wife had a baby. 2) Reasonable price - $525. Promentory point was $630 and you can't get a desk up the stairs easily to put into the den in the loft. 3) Centrally located. Just 1 hour, not 1 1/3 hour from LA (that has made a difference), and close to Justin. Didn't want to live right in Laguna Beach anyway. Too tempting. 4) Quiet. Beautiful place. I like it a lot. Upstairs location. Good sunset view.

So decided to go for that and moved in around Fri May 2 or Sat 3rd. But Bekins didn't start to deliver for awhile and I didn't have things like a desk to start with so I used UCI's library.

I was starting to really like this place and to appreciate its advantages and realized that it is the combo of ABQ and SEA that I'd dreamt of. Even Russell falls into this concept. There is nothing in ABQ that I would miss compared to NB, but it was pleasant + lots of fun given the sort of person I was then. I liked the scrub brush there but green grass if fine and gets yellow in the summer, like ABQ. I miss beach there. But I couldn't continue to grow there, because others aren't there. I'd always see it like I [???] it then perhaps. I've outgrown ABQ and its backward gay life. I don't even know if I'd like Sunday drives anymore.