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couldn't do this till I have experienced [red ink at top of page]
coding on Mac & have Pers Acct underway [red ink at top of page]
FRI 8/24 10:00 Work & Dentist [black ink inserted text next to sentence on page top]
12:00[ black ink and pointed to text below]
October 10/16 at Clark Hatch: Very depressed about having nothing to show for my work.
-Put my accounts on D & S[highlighted in yellow], and realize
it subsumes all I'd thought up until then.
-Desire to do a visible product like a 6502
software toy with sound & graphics, but I
realize that they aren't super important,
and I've already got code on every COMMO[text inserted above] 64 already!
[texted inserted beside list- TOUT PASSE-]
- Lots of wasted time whining about my env't. Depressed
-Musical ear training => forget sensitivity to music
-How can I get more money?[red ink underline] Feel left behind. [text inserted below in red ink- "I'M NOT HOT"] [arrow from money to text in red ink- I WANT RESPECT.
November
-Decide I must manage others. I'm 30 now.[bracketed with 3 points above starting at -Lots]
That's the only way my salary will go up. [text inserted beside- GROW INTO ROLE-]
But problems: commitment to group & to work
& to Seattle & to sogginess & to lunches w/ others
-Very bleak even though Halloween was great [red ink]
-Study Negotiation to try to get "deal" for Pers Acct
-Waste time on options some more
-I want comfort: household, cook, lover, before I do PA
-Fix bugs in Sort. Important.
-LOTS OF WASTED TIME: MORNING MADNESS, DAN(HAWAII), ETC.[red ink]
-REVIEW W/BILL, REALIZING I HAVE NOTHING NEW TO OFFER [red ink]
TO BOLSTER MY SALARY VIS A VIS SORT [red ink] [arrow pointing up to inserted text in red ink- He says I'm best paid prog.[red ink]
REALIZE I'VE GOT LOTS OF TIME. NO DEADLINE [red ink and highlighted in yellow] [text in red ink on side of page pointing to this comment- TOUT PASSE MAIS-]
-WHO WOULD USE Pers Acct & WHY? DISH IT! [highlighted in yellow]
SKI TRIP
-chess...Reuben Fine's book
December
-Decide not to do Pers Acct.[highlighted in yellow] It won't help
me.
But I did improve my paper methods.40/80 column Yuk
-Read books on Personal Money Matters
-Realize that YTD transaction reports are feasible
-Decide I am enthused[highlighted in yellow and connected to first point under December and point under November-WHO Would...-] &
describe the HOUSE I want
-RE-EMPHASIZE FORGETTING INVESTMENT ADVICE & [red ink]
STOCK OPTIONS, JUST GO FOR DCA & DIVERSIFICATION. [red ink]
-STRESS ROYALTIES TO BILL. BILL OFFERS DOUBLE TIME. [red ink]
-BUT MY INCOME SHOULD NOT BE BASED ON PDT SUCCESS.[red ink]
-DECIDE TO DECLINE BILL'S OFFER. I WANT TIME TO
DEVELOP[highlighted in yellow and seemingly connected to four previous points in October and November and possibly -I HAVE NOTHING NEW TO OFFER-?]
-BOB HAS JULIAN OVER SUNDAY NIGHT, DURING "IT'S A ...LIFE"
-MONDAY[inserted above-12/17] MORNING WAS BEAUTIFUL WITH
SNOW. SO SAD
-TAKE A WEEK OFF FOR CHRISTMAS.
-TAKE A WEEK OFF FOR FURNITURE SHOPPING.[furniture shopping highlighted in yellow]
-NEW YEARS EVE BLOWUP W/ ARTURO.
- MOVE OLD FURNITURE TO MOM & DAD'S[
[text inserted along side these bullet points- TOUT PASSE]
12/18 Bill sends memo "Given you are the best paid [highlighted in yellow]
development person, this is crazy." [highlighted in yellow][arrow pointing to- Monday 12/17]
LOTS OF WASTED TIME. BLEAK. [red ink]
BETTER THAN $. TIME TO PLAY TOO. [this text is inserted in bottom corner of page with and arrow pointing to -I WANT TIME TO DEVELOP] [Play too- underlined 3 times.] [all text under December has text inserted beside-TOUT PASSE][ all text from October down is enclosed with text on side of page- very dark, dreary, damp. AUTUMN.]