Diary

Written Sat Eve Feb 4 '84. Later: Uptight at park bench Afraid to see BB & BS

Score for fun w/ Bob & friends

10{ HALLOWEEN

4{ Nov 4 Lee Salinas birthday. To Ritz to read Muffie's letter. Nov 5 Neighbors was fun. Home w/ Ulrich. Nov 6 Morning madness. Reagan's brunch. Carnival at Neigbor's. Yawn. Bob's a terrible mess.

4{ Nov 11 Stay home Nov 12 [Rita's?] & Brad Parks are too much. (Fun Microsoft / Chris Larson party.) "Tempted" by Dan from Hawaii. Missed Randy's hot tub party, but Bob came over anyway Nov 13 Nervous brunch at Ritz. John Hesla. Walk in V. Park w/ Bob. Conservatory. [Home?] play w/ Bob & Chippendales. Ski Buddy's [Burien?]. Cuddle during movies. Dave Wilson's housewarming

8{ Nov 18 Stay Home Nov 19 Stormy / rainy "Mommie Dearest" Nice dinner at Bob's (crummy) apt Didn't stay over. Why? Scabies? Nov 20 Breakfast fun at Raison d'Etre Shopping downtown. Sex & came home. "Dismal & dreary looking at yellow mansion. Without Bob it'd be awful"

8{ Nov 24 - 27 Thanksgiving ski holiday at Mount Bachelor.

6.5{ Dec 1 Stay home Dec 2 Randy's "never without a flawless hat" party Too much crystal speed - hard to sleep with Bob Dec 3 Nothing gay. Just take Bob home.

5{ Dec 9 Visit Bob. I go out alone. Meet Con. Dec 10 Reluctant to go home with Bob Dec 11 Blah brunch at Ritz w/ Bob & Kitty Shop for cards & tree. Wierd party at Bill Morgan's.

4{ Dec 16 - 18 Christmas parties. Brunch with Kitty & Chuck at Raison d'Etre. Con goes gallery with us. "What a Wonderful Life" & Con Dec 25 Good & quiet

8{ (with Bob) New Year's Arturo

See rest of January written on 1 / 30 SO: Halloween - Jan 22 Avg = 5.88, 76.5 / 13 weeks =

Conclusions:

1) This winter would've been a disaster without Bob, and his friends.

2) Even with the less than inspiring times, at least I had something to do.

3) But I better protect myself against next winter. I want to develop presence where the weather is not so dismal.

4) Point is that I'm very tired & uninspired in Seattle from Nov - Jan.

5) Maybe just leave for November & December '84.

6) Enjoying Bob's friends was not easy. So I should send a card to Bob: "I couldn't have made it through the winter without you, so I feel so attached, but now you needs someone who can be there more. So I will let go, and with winter passing behind, I can. We always did have good timing. (Thanks for a great winter) Love & kisses & champagne glasses clinking - Ric

written Tuesday Afternoon Mar 6 '84

And it's LENT till my birthday, the day before EASTER. And then it's two weeks till CDP Exam. And then as soon as I can regroup, I'll loosen up socially again.

ONLY TWO MONTHS.

This doesn't mean I won't travel after April 1. But it should be clear to me that California is not the place. Since I want a gay community, the only possibilities are SD, LA & SF.

Anti LA

"GOING TO CULVER CITY TO SEE PAT & DICK." YUK! CRAZY PEOPLE EVERYWHERE JORGE, RUSSELL, AARON, ARTURO, BOB DEC TOO COMPETITIVE IN BEAUTY / WIT. "GOING TO THE BEACH" YUK "JULY AND AUGUST" YUK. "NO COMPARISON BETWEEN LA & NY " - MIDLER "GOING TO THE THEATRE" NO FOND MEMORY. SO SPREAD OUT - NO COMMUNITY. NO CHARACTER. NO HEART. NO SEASONS. NEVER MET ANYONE AT STUDIO I; TOO 8709

Anti SF

NOT FUN TO LIVE IN. TOO GAY. NOT REAL ENOUGH. TOO CRAMPED. NO BEACHES. TOO CLOUDY. NO HOT SUMMER. NO SEASONS. DOESN'T HAVE ANY OF LA'S OR SEA'S STRONG QUALITIES

SAN DIEGO

Too remote. Too far south. Hard to ski. What to do Sundays. No seasons. Too many old folks & marines. It has never really grabbed me. Black sheep of Califonia cities. Not prestigious

If it weren't sunny, I wouldn't go there. [insert] And I learned from Fab '83 trips, LA & SF can be dismal too! [/insert] Only part I've loved is O. C. and I don't want to live there anymore because it lacks gays. All this means I am totally Anti-California. There's not part that I would move to.

That's quite a realization. And this means I should have no trouble finally transferring my driver's license & Auto Club membership.

But Seattle is also tough. It has a lot, but it's fact that 1) the winter weather makes me lazy 2) the people are uninspiring

Trip to SM & LA April 1984

10:05 Jorge calls & I tell him yes. Then I call Dick and tell him I'm coming. Could be fun since Pat will be gone. Then call Jerry about Ballet. Then call Brad. He says this weekend would not be good since he has to study, so GO.

11:00 Do mail, etc.

Wednesday, April 4

to 9:30 Breakfast at Lion's. Bob stops by on way to haircut.

to 11:30 CDP Accounting

to 2:00 Go to Fredericks [insert] to try on large polo too big [/insert] for linens (on sale) and Air Cal 2 - for - 1 certificate

to 3:00 Put stuff in car. Have lunch. Buy tik to LA.

3 - 6:00 Laundry. [insert] (even bedding) [/insert] Garbage. Plants. Mail. Mom. Go to work to do mail & tell jeff, russ & randy I'm going away for a week.

6 - 11:45 Dinner & "Sleeping Beauty" with Jerry Baldasty. Very, very comfortable. Very pleasant & pretty ballet. GOOD TIME