Standley_Correspondence_1957-07-07

Sunday 7, July 1957

Hello Marcia:

My trip up there Friday was without mentionable event, except that I voted you relish meat on the restricted day.

There were two reasons for taking advantage of the immediate convenient transporation.

As you know I only asked you if at all possible to delay your coming marriage. My personal reason behind this request, along with that mentioned, perhaps selfish, was to gain some time for me to be honest with myself and God if I was to take my traditional place in your wedding.

The second reason was to assure myself that a possible way out for you, of a prediciment you might want to step out of before time runs out, might be made available. As you may know, if one is to be hurt it might be expedient to complete the act currently rather than have the hurt develop later on just to be spread over a drawn out period. Now whatever sort

of impression my attitude may have made upon you, please note that at no time were my efforts directed to interfere with your romance nor was I willing to develop a situation of [?]. What I have done in any event was to honestly try to evaluate everything from the standpoint of your future welfare and happiness. My judgement was predicated upon honesty, personal knowledge and experience.

I am quite willing to admit my attitude is of small consequence, likewise that all my efforts have along with my years of planning been a rather dismal failure if not highly disappointing. Whatever the current outcome, I feel sure you will have a much better understanding of everything that has been my doing, as you go forward in life trying to plan and make decisions that might have a minimum of outright failure or disappointment.

Angelic love is truly something quite different from platonic or biological.

Sorry to have astounded you.

Sincerely, Daddy

Trying to overcome my bitterness and disappointment is something I would gladly leave to others, however, it just doesn't seem to work out that way.