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18th. Monday. School. Feel lazy : went up to William G's tonight. Had nice time too. Dulcie Scott there & Miss Davidson (Maud) we three together thought of old times at school. 19th. Tuesday. Practised up Johnny get your Gun this afternoon. They took away the piano to the Hall for the Band of Hope so our lesson had have to [...] over. Full house tonight. The girls sang badly & Mr. Button was shocked at our song. The young toads didn't sing out half enough. 20th. Wednesday. Mr. & Mrs. Ellison went home this morning. They are very anxious to see me "off". Wrote to B. tonight. 21st. Thursday. Had to give all the extra lessons today. Got letter from Curtis wanting to name a price - any price for my allotment. They the one who wants to buy has a price for the 3 allots. & the block & wants mine so I just wrote straight back - £35 - he can take that or leave it. Jim must be selling his - silly thing. We 2 left tonight without a chaperon. Pa & Ma both away. 22nd. Friday. Mr. & Mrs. away still. Went over to the Office this morning & posted my letters. 23rd. Saturday. Lessons - music. Kate Tom & I had nice ride this afternoon. Mr & Mrs came back last night. It wouldn't have done to leave D. & I alone like this - but what high times we'd have had but they never left us any chance. Parcel of oranges & lemons from Ma so she must be home. 24th. Sunday. Church twice. Revd. Castleton preached this morning. Nice sermon too. I played both times 25th. Monday. They sent me a complimentary ticket & letter of thanks for the Concert 26th. Tuesday. Two men from Kolan were here to dinner today. Last night Mr. Curtis & Mr. O'Connell came & stayed all night. Heard something. Said Mr. C. "How's Dave getting along. He was at our house the other night but I couldn't get a chance of speaking to him. He was so busy flirting - he's a great flirt" So ~ my surmises were not incorrect. I'm not easily deceived. They both went out to a meeting at Kolan. 27th. Wednesday. They went off this morning. Mrs. Boreham & the boy came up last night. Got up with sore throat yesterday morning & sneezing all today. 28th. Thursday. Two more visitors arrived tonight. Mrs. Warry from Maryboro. & a lady from Melbourne - a Miss Collie - a fine looking girl. I had a horrid day for cold in head. Must have got it from Kate or from having my window open the other night. Wrote to Ma. Do wish I haven't to play tomorrow night Anyway Mrs. W. is coming up & she can do. 29th. Friday. Fearful head all day. Mrs W. came & we played a Duet for the opening. May & Annie played "Bobbie Dundee" - & well too. Blackie & Miss Greathead & her brother - Miss La Fontaine & a man to play the dance music all came from town. I only played for Miss G. As far as I was concerned I might have stayed home. I only played 2 accompts. Wasn't sorry tho'. They had a farce after - a silly thing & then finished up with the Dance. We stayed to watch 2 or 3 & then came home. 30th Saturday. Lessons this morning. Heard something more. Mrs. W. said D. was a great lady's man (to Mrs. Warry) Last night he was to drive 4 girls out to Windermere. So - my surmises correct again. He[underlined] wasn't going into any society - not he - he[underlined] wasn't going to have anything to do with any girls down there. Fickle! as I told him. Well he needn't expect to have any more of me. He came up tonight. As Mrs. W. & I passed through to go "outside" I spoke to him then back to the drawing roon. He went to the Lecture by Mr. Pound in the Hall. Offended with me I suppose because I didn't fuss over him. I didn't intend to see him much - was going to bed. No more of that for me. Mrs. B. went home today 1st. May Sunday. His[underlined] birthday too. He didn't even say Good morning to me. I talked to him tho'. Went to church. Played. After dinner I went to bed Mrs. W. & D. drove down about 3. I didn't know they were going so soon. Told Mrs. to say Goodbye to him for me - he called out from the dining room. He is not a bit the same as he was last time. Don't know if he is offended with me for last

night. Can't help it. Must be done. Do wish he'd stay away & not come here to disturb my place. Have had a wretched time. was quite glad when he went. I know I'll keep out of his way as much as possible for the future if he's going to be so nasty. but I mustn't be unchristian. Who when he [...] reacted reviled not again - Must be like my Maker. Lord help me not to hear any malice or ill will. But it's hard when one's kind overtures are thrown back again . He couldn't even condescend to wear a nice little bouquet I picked for him. Took it to pieces & only wore 1 flower 2nd. Monday. They went away this morning. I like Miss M. Collie. Feel quite relieved after so miserable a day yesterday. I'll go to town next time I know he's coming up - if possible An event today. Tom W. was riding Kate's mare barebacked at school - & recklessly as usual he fell & rolled on his leg. Mr. Martin brought him home in his buggy - they didn't know or were not sure that his leg was broken or not - decided to take him to town - so W. drove him in the bottom of the buggy pillowed up & Mrs. G. went too. They most likely will leave him at Wilde's or the Hospital. Polly & I & the 2 girls were left for the night. Poor Tom - he was in pain & very subdued. What a mercy the same didn't happen to me that time at Colanne. I told Kate. 3rd. Tuesday. W. came home about 1/2-12 last night. 2-? can't tell yet whether the leg's broken or not - Mrs. G. is bringing him home tonight - strange. Have been thinking about Tom all day. We 2 seem to be left a good deal to each other & society of late. D. & I wouldn't have been left alone like that. Shows they can trust him[underlined]. 4th. Wednesday. Mrs. G. came home with Tom last night Dr. T. says the small bone of the leg is fractured. It will mean 3 weeks in bed for Tom - active Tom - Letters from Ma & H. W. - evidently thinks the same as ever of me. Poor old chap. I feel tempted to [...] reward his faithfulness. Mr. Ellison had service tonight but I went not too tired. Have had Harold & Leslie together this week. 5th. Friday. Blowing horribly cold all day. nearly frozen. Were going with the girls to the Falls tomorrow but as I heard W. saying something to Mrs. Stirling about going to town tomorrow I asked to go too so it was decided tonight that he was going & coming back Sunday. 7th. Saturday. Up at daylight this morning & gave clarinet lesson before breakfast - Norman after - Mrs. G. going to town too so I didn't know whether to go by train or by the buggy but as he wished me to come with him - he was leaving before dinner - so we went down together - in an hour & 20 min. - at 12 o'clock - Gave Ma a shock. We went down shopping all afternoon - got myself 2 blouses & a new black skirt - little hat - got good cloak at Cullinane's - brown with fur 35/- had some singing after tea. Wonder if he[underlined] knows I'm here - must have seen me today - we were at the Barracks - quite near the Dairy - 8th. Sunday. Horrid day. Hardly any sleep all night - tried everything but still felt half choked - sick as could be since early this morning - couldn't keep a thing on my stomach - didn't think I could come away - got dressed somehow & sent Ivy & Alf to tell him to come round but after waiting till nearly 11 couldn't wait any longer so Ma & I walked along & up he came - he had passed up town & they didn't see him. We reached home fast at dinner felt so miserable all along but not so bad as before - managed to keep a mouthful of coffee down - must have either the fever - or else what the children had - or else a fresh cold & chill. They said something was wrong I was such a bad colour 9th. Monday. Sick all day & tight too. Nasty day - rain & cold. Mabel Davidson Jean S. & Jim Walker were here for tea. Wished noone had come but we had not such a bad time after all. Played bagatelle.

10th. Tuesday. As miserable a day as I ever spent. Raining all day & bitterly cold. Didn't come home to dinner. Feverish all day too. pains in my back & legs. Wonder if it's the fever. Wrote to Ma & went to bed early. 11th. Wednesday. Brighter day. Feel bad in my chest today. Have been as drowsy as can be these days - feel as if I'd like to go into a corner somewhere : sleep . sleep - Visitors here for tea 3 Scotch folk - 2 from home father & daughter - one Mrs. Wallace - wife of Pres. minister at Killarney I played a bit after tea - old man said "My but you're a gra-a-a-nd player" They all went up to Mrs. Willie's where the folks are staying. I stayed in. 12th. Thursday. Not much better today. Thought I might have had a letter from B. tonight but none came - 13th. Friday. Mr. G. came home from Brisbane today. He's quite disgusted with my being sick again. I don't bring the nasty things they come - must have got a thorough chill last Friday & Sat. Sent to Davidson for podophyllin pills - seems to be my liver wrong. 14th. Saturday. Bad still - my liver must be right - the pill didn't make any difference - suppose the thing will go when it pleases. Revd. Castleton here for a night & the evening. He preaches tomorrow. Going to loaf tomorrow - feel miserable & low - Paid Mrs. G. till 30th. up X - 3.12.0 - cheque for £3.15.0 15th. Sunday. Stayed in bed till 11 - better night - had warm bath - washed my hair & felt no worse - better for it - rested all day - 16th. Monday. Better somewhat today. 17th. Tuesday. Bad again. Ate some fish at tea last night - suppose it did it - had horrible night. Took another pill dose - but no good effect. Believe it's indigestion I have - want of exercise tells on me now I suppose. 18th. Wednesday. Not much better today. It's horrible to feel like this where there's so much to be done. Slept better last night. Went to bed at 8. 19th. Thursday. Bit better but so dreadfully weak & short winded. just like after influenza. No letter - Wont get any this week now. Perhaps he's heard what I told him & believed it. Let him - if he likes to believe tales. I'm trying him now. Perhaps he'll prove a failure too. 20th. Friday. W. went to Brisbane this morning. Mrs. G. to town so Mr. & I were left to dinner together. He left for town too this afternoon so only I & the children. I go home tomorrow & stay till Monday. Busy day. Feel much better. 21st. Saturday. Got lessons over in time. Sent word to Ma that I'd go in to town before going home & we'd have lunch there at Peat's so she met me when I got down & we went in there - had lunch - & had a quiet time to ourselves - then went & did shopping - got Ma nice black dress - a cloak - cheap - 13/- Got ride to Miss Mackenays in bus - got fitted & then home. Feel as weak as can be - must have something more than a cold. Not so cold today. Davidson gave me little bottle of tablets - soda & mint. Says it's indigestion - 22nd. Sunday. Church this morning. Didn't feel so nice as yesterday but better than I thought. Rested all afternoon & had nice talk. Sang some at night 23rd. Monday. Went round to Miss M's again. Got up after breakfast yesterday & today. Rest has done me good. Walked up to train - feel weak yet. It must have been a thorough chill I got that morning & it affected my digestion too. Got up here early. Didn't see any sign of children & when I got here found that they had never come home - they went down this morning & I suppose wont come back till tomorrow night. I might have had today too but then would have had to give Saturday instead. Lovely day & not cold.

24th. Tuesday. Queen's Birthday. Had school this morning - May was going tothe Sports at Kolan & wanted the other girls togo too so excepting her lesson & Annie's I had holiday this afternoon. Fixed up my photos - brought some old frames from home - fixed some sewing & mooched round in general. Feel lot better today. Hope it's the turning point. May & W. came home tonight from Brisbane & the girls. M. looks well & she might after such a nice long holiday. No letter yet. 25th. Wednesday. Nice today. Wrote to S. M Meme Allanby last night & Jim Stirling tonight & [...] 26th. Thursday. M. told me something of her operation - on the part that she did undergo - she didn't have a proper one - Dr. Cooper told her she'd never have any children if she married. I'm sure that's nothing to fret over. No letter yet 27th. Friday. Feel not nice today - physically - very - but not spiritually - Wish I had even a few lines to cheer me - Apples from Ma tonight &c. 28th. Saturday. M. & the girls drove to town this morning. I might have gone but had too much todo - marking books with Tom this afternoon - 2 months to add up - Found all sorts of things to do so didn't feel time to get sad. Mr. Tensly came up with them. Dave is expected some time tonight. We had some fun in the drawing room. Letter from Jim yesterday. The little dress they sent the boy wont look near him - the hat does - 29th. Saturday. D. arrived last night - he stayed all day & went back with Mr. Ellison at night - was a bit more evil this time - yet he evidently has put me clean away out of his thoughts - treats me just as if I was a perfect stranger tohim - better so - things have righted themselves - rained some this afternoon - cold too. Mr. T. entertained me with music half the afternoon. 30th. Monday. Glad I was so well yesterday - Joe's birthday. 40th - I believe. Dieu le blesse. 31st. Tuesday. Another miserable day & last night - ate a little fish again suppose it's that - no more for me - whenever am I to get rid of this nasty old thing. Young Thallon - nephew of railway Thallon's) - & not long out from Scotland came to night - he seems a nice boy - about 20 - & real Scotch - No letter - suppose I'm doomed to disappointment again. 1st. June Wednesday. Not much better today either. believe for I could get a letter be it ever so small I should feel different - if none comes this week I'll believe no more in prayer - no more - wrote to Ma 2nd. Thursday. This day 2 years - we had our ride & he cut our names that lovely day - Well this day ended happier then I thought - We 3 & Jean T. went up to Mrs. Willie's to spend the evening. I felt not nice & wished I hadn't gone - while there news came that old Tom Stirling had broken his leg in the mill - When we got home there were 2 letters awaiting me - one from Ma - the other from Bob - the rascal - keeping me waiting for so long & couldn't offer any apology - never mind. It did me good & comforted me & proved that God had not forgotten to be gracious to me in answering my poor petition - Ma thinks she'll start for Rockn. on the 1st. July - reduces fares - wants me to get off sooner - don't know - believe the holidays are in 3 weeks time at the end of the month - Was talking to young T. tonight about Boyne P. he knows him well - Jack - says he's the best behaved boy there & the most studious - very glad to hear it 3rd. Friday. Happy day today & better - Alf's birthday 33rd. I think - God bless the dear boy - Mr. G. & young T. went to Watana today - T. stays till next Tuesday. 4th. Saturday. Never remembered till tonight this is the anniversary of our engagement. The day Love first awoke in my bosom - Poor me - well it's dead I

suppose. We the girls & I were going for a ride this afternoon but it came on to heavy rain - I wrote to Artie. Mr. Howes came this evening. 5th. Sunday. Went not out this morning - had rest - & good read this afternoon 6th. Monday. Mr. H. went away today. I like him better this time. 7th. Tuesday. Jim[underlined] came back today. He enjoyed himself at Watana immensely so he says. Mr. Markin Mrs. G. brother came up. He has been sick. 8th. Wednesday. Choir going to give Esther tomorrow night . Feel better today. 9th. Thursday. Got off early this afternoon. Went over to Hall & helped to receive the choir. About 17 sat down to tea. Some came after - about 8. Mrs. W. came up with Mr. & Mrs. C. Powers who came to pay a visit. M. Jean S. & Jim T. helped to get the tea - I went with some of the girls over to the mill after tea. We had some fun. I played for Mr. Palmer - & he went sharp as sharp - Martha B. didn't turn over for me just then - I played for Miss Thomas too but wouldn't any more. Helped in the alto. It went through very well. Willie Y. was up too & saw me home - I had only my little cape so hurried home. He wanted me badly to go for a walk with him tonight but I kept out of the way. They were very anxious to know who came with me but I strung them on. He said Mrs. [...] was jealous of me - she'd heard a few things = Sorry - told him she needn't be - Letter from Jim T. waiting me - he wrote straight away the same day was very pleased to get my letter. He's a nice sort is Jim. Feel better tonight than I've done for a long time. Mrs. W. said I looked different[underlined] from last time. Wouldn't tell me how. Big party here tomorrow. Letter & parcel from Ma. 10th. Friday. They busy today getting things ready for tonight. We all had tea out in the back verandah. Mrs. Boreham up. They all arrive about 8 - such a push - 3 buggy loads - about 24 - the Notts & the Curtis's & the Castle's &c. &c. Mrs. W. & Dave gave the party & brought them up here by way of variety. I played the dances except 1 - & we had singing whilst some went over the Mill - but they are a terrible lot to entertain - as slow as a funeral. Heard that D. was trotting out a girl to sit & watch the stars - but in order to get out of the way of Eva Davies who is mad after him. He was quite gracious when I did[underlined] see him. Felt quite lighthearted & unconcerned. Very glad I can[underlined] feel like that. They stayed till about 12 - then drove home - cold drive it must have been - Hope I don't pay up for this. He upholdeth me[3 underlined]. Alf's Wedding day. 11th. Saturday. Lessons. Threatened rain but nothing loth we set off for Colanne Station. Jean S. I & Miss Scott rode - Mr. Markin drove M. Linda Castles & Jim T. We had a nice time. I rode Laddie all the way. he went splendidly - in fact I couldn't keep him steady - would race Miss Scott's horse - Got back about 1/2-5 - had some fun too & at night 12th. Sunday. Feel bit stiff but lot better - must have done me good the exercise yesterday. Church & wore my new blouse - it looks lovely. fits so well - sorry it doesn't match the skirt better but I'll get a lush. Loafed all afternoon & then went for walk to Grandy G's & Mr. Willie stayed there for tea - had some singing & then came home. 13th. Monday. Mrs. W. went home this afternoon. Schools break up on 24th. so Linda C. says. Mrs. Maitland has a son - 14th. Tuesday. 15th. Wednesday. We had some fun tonight with Sam Slick. I like Jim 16th. Thursday. Sad news this morning that Mrs. M. had died this morning M. saw her yesterday & thought she was looking very bad & thought they ought to send for a doctor. It seems they sent for one last night