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otherwise would have been glad to spend the time with me. Asked H's
permission to kiss me!!! Gracious! Would have rather liked it - Says
H. Perhaps it's just as well he has arranged so - He might cut me out.
Maybe he might have been a disturbing element. Don't think I can
see him now unless he comes up but a night & sees me.
13th. Sunday. Bright day - cold - went not out. Had no hat. Wrote to
Edie. D. came up today.
14th. Monday. Wrote to H. Feel all the old nastiness about me deepens
qu'il est arrivé. Must get over all that somehow. Cette maison ne serai jamais la même
15th. Tuesday. Letter from H. Went up to Alick G's last night. Didn't
enjoy it a bit. Il etait la. C'est pourquoi
16th. Wednesday. Busy day & felt very tired tonight. Mrs. Uhlmann
was staying here for today : has been here for the last week. M. asked
all the relations over to spend the evening. Such a host there were - not
all the youngones either. I had to play about 20 accompts. & felt so horrid
& dull all evening. Must be his being here. Felt as tho' I'd like a good howl. was over-tired
17th. Thursday. Suppose M. must have thought me very mean & silly last
night : but I couldn't help it. Mrs U. thinks M. & I don't do credit to our new state & condition. We ought be fat.
18th. Friday. Another week gone thanks be. Had to leave off at 3 this
afternoon : Mr. Snell & Mr. Hutchinson up for missionary "Social". They all
think Mr. S. has insulted me by not getting me to play his accompts.
but I'm real glad. He's asked Flor. G. to play. Eva wouldn't. There
was a full Hall contrary to their expectations - but - it was a real
trap to get money : they had papers handed round I.O.U's. - folks were
clean disgusted Got £7.12.0. - robbery - quite. He sang two songs very
well. I played for Mrs. W. G. but she didn't sing well - was very nervous.
Sent word that I was coming home to-morrow.
19th. Saturday. Went down by the buggy this morning. Archie G. was
going down to bring back his girl (they are to be married in the first week
of October.) so I got down home at 1/2-9 & found the Mother gone to town so I
scooted after her but found her not until she turned up at Peats after
being home to look for me - So we got what we wanted & came home. Telegram
there from Jim but we can't make anything of it - it's such a mixture
There may be a letter on Monday. Wish I knew one way or the other.
20th. Sunday. Church & played. The organ is much better now - a man
from Sydney has done it up properly. It's a treat to play on. After church
was speaking to Mrs. W. She wanted me very much to come up to dinner
as Jim Stirling had come - surely that would bring me but - I thought
of the little Mother & the few moments that we had to spend together -
we couldn't afford to lose even them so as I sould see Jim at home
too next week decided not to go. Saw Min Workman too to speak to
21st. Monday. Up early this morning & away by 5 train. Rain. kept off
this time but it looked threatening when we left home - I was the
only one coming to Bingera so as the roads were dry I - waited till it got
light & walked up. Never felt a bit tired after it either. Wrote to H.
(Letter from him here waiting me didn't take any notice of my previous
[...] to Arthur for Tuesday) telling me most likely he would be
with him on Sat. Wrote to Alf too & lo! just as I had finished M.
brought a letter from Ma enclosing one from Jim. He had evidently quite
been unprepared for her visit up to keep house during E's absence - believe
he didn't know anything about her going till we said. Doesn't want
Ma up to be working for him - will do for himself - wants quiet &c.