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this morning. Don't know how I got together. Rested at home
all day. Uncertain about H's coming. Willie went up to meet
him. He did come & brought my ring!!! Felt like somebody else.
Wish I had not been so nasty - didn't want him to see me in this
state - We had to be content with a talk in the back room
Will has made a kitchen & the house is quite nice. My enlargement came too - not bad atall[sic].
1st. April Saturday. Mrs. Mellor sent up Noel with the buggy for us
to go down in so H drove - we left at 10 - went down town first -
Suppose we were squinted at too. Lees' had a good old squint.
Had a nice drive down - got there at 12 - had dinner with Mrs.
M. & Lea C. that was. H. & I walked over to the Lighthouse for him
to send a telegram to Miss P. saying he would stay till Tuesday
cheek of him - he intended going back on Monday morning - I felt
better already but very shaky. So disgusted that I should be like this
2nd. Sunday. Easter. Nice quiet day. Better but horrid cough. H. read a letter me today.
3rd. Monday. - We two went over to the Lighthouse & got a man to
show us up it - Races here. Young Alf in it - enjoying himself here.
Feel lot better today - Wish H. could stay on - We
are just getting to know each other now - he must go tomorrow morning
Had a walk out tonight for a while on beach.
4th. Tuesday. Cough bothered me much last night - also -
he remarked last night that he'd bought a ticket for a dance
next Monday & was taking Lottie Hulk - also sending other
remarks then & this morning that made me think - last night
we had a good time but still this rankled in my mind - why
does he want to go to dances now or what right has he - engaged
to me & a professing Christian too. Wish I'd spoken out. The
dear chap left about 12 with Matthewson. Didn't feel so bad after
as I thought. Sat out this afternoon bit. Rained some last night
& this morning. Looks set in. Wrote to Ivy to take him round
& to the Social tonight Mr. Ellison's Farewell.
5th. Wednesday. Had nice bathe this morning. Feel better for it.
Had nasty night rather & slept in till nearly 10 -
6th. Thursday. Lovely bathe at 12 - Went over & spent the
afternoon at Lea's. She has a nice home. Letter from H.
Didn't like it - made me feel nasty. Not at all like his usual
ones. Seemed to upbraid me[underlined] for causing him to lose Tuesday.
& consequently 2 guineas - Feel quite offended - especially as he
wants his tie which he left behind to go to the dance on Monday.
7th. Friday. Cough still & sick rather this morning. Lea came
over to spend the afternoon. We had tea on the beach & [...]
there Ivy & Mellor's 3 arrived with the buggy. Such a picnic
as we had tonight with them all - Got oysters this morning
Lovely day - wish I felt nicer.
8th. Saturday. Horrible day - sick & miserable - coughed from
the time we left the coast till 1/2-4 this afternoon. Sick at heart
Ma read my letter last night & didn't like it either - wanted to know
where he intended going on Monday so I told her. She was
very much surprised too at it. Spoke so about it that I didn't
sleep scarcely all night. Had a good howl under the trees this
morning. She found me & comforted me the darling mother. Feel as if
I hated going back to Bingera this time - wish I could just stay