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I sincerely desire to live nearer to God
in the old-fashion[ed] sense and be more
resigned and patient under those
very, very severe trials. Wave upon wave
not excepting harsh and cutting re-
buke inflicting keen and severely acute
pain. God knows I sympathise and love
most tenderly ... I can only pray Lord help
Lord help me! There is no question of
dear S's love, deep love, but an unfor-
tunate way of expressing what comes
uppermost is so grating to the feelings ...
True it is ... A harsh reproof or a look
unkind May spoil the peace of the
chastened mind. I think S. might have

On Saturday afternoon went to
Clara's who is so warm hearted
and affectionate ... Tom so kind.
Received two or three shocks.
Tom and Clara's cheerful kindness
in some measure alleviated
their intensity ... Mr S. better, dear
Sarah looks so much happier, thus
one load is lightened for which I
am truly thankful. Still very anxi-
ous wishing yet dreading to hear from
town [?] ... Shall I ever feel glad again
in this life ... I do want to be glad!

Sarah's love is a comfort and
so is dear Clara's ... I feel so tired
of this constant heartache