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June 24 ... My poor Charlie is not gone
to Sydney. I confess I am thankful he is
not ... I had much to fear from his going.
I wish I had hope for his remaining.
O my Saviour God ... when will every
Christian man and woman be
Christ like. Am I so. Conscience an-
swers no! Break the power of e-
vil O Lord. Pardon and sup-
port me I pray thee.

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July ... the last Sunday in the month ...
went to a tea-meeting on Wednes-
day, brought to mind many re-
collections, present experience con-
trasting painfully with the past ...
How lonely, and how little under-
stood even by the dearest. I wish I
could feel greater trust in God
in seasons of severe mental suffer-
ing. Were my children as happy as
I wish ... loving and serving God ...
this earth to me would be heaven

August ... Disappointed John not
come. Why? Nothing good to tell of C.
Sarah looking miserable. Sabbath dis-
regarded. The deepest depression ...
How isolated! Who cares?
Could I see Sarah cheerful as I think
she might be it would give some
life to me. Shall I ever again know