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May 27th ... Another sad Sabbath. Why
I write I do not know ... Nothing I can
write but would perhaps be better
not written. If I had prayed for help
to sustain me in my trials, instead
of praying to have them removed
I might have passed a less suffering
day. I am told to think of my mer-
cies and contrast them with my
trials ... I try not to do so but if suffering
a severe toothache it is poor com-
fort to be told not to mind it as
only one tooth is aching. I am very
very sad, and is there not a
cause? How many prayers have
gone up for my children!!!
Which I say to many of my chil-
dren seems like idle tales ... This I am
more than ever convinced of that
"The Christian - he alone is wise ...
The Christian ... he alone is great"

No one can think less of himself
or herself than I do of myself ...
Why so many disappointments?
... Sarah is so kind, to me.