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do not get over it - we can take the shock
go [?] through the ceram ceremony without
tears or fanfare, so to speak but the let-
down as we both know comes later.
Miss Sara radiated beauty, human compassion,
love of fellow man - thoughtfullness of
others before herself - oh I understood
her and loved her for her fine qualities,
as did all the students who knew her.

The day oof Mrs. Hildebrandt's tragic
death I talked with her about a certain
epiletic student in West Wing - I know
I am repeating myself but I have
written such volumes to you - tearing
up some for fear of being misunder
stood - a throw back - in other words the same old
fear of being misunderstood by my
husband as I was in the past and
taking the full blame because I
didn't know why I couldnt be [man
mountain dean?]." See that [de?] tear
drop below - I must stop that line
of thought according to Dr. Neustadt
the only criticism [critiscism?]he could offer me,
was that I live too must in the
past. But for the past 20 years
years - I have always maintained -
lived on and practised - well briefly
I always went on the bassis that
tomorrow is another day and I
know I will be much better. No
wonder my family couldn't under
stand me and cannot yet - yet that
tomorrow thank God is here.