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what I just wrote, huh, me who has spent half of
my adult years in jails, as one judge put it as bluntly
Miriam, I had to laugh though when I heard it coming from
him, he put it so morbidly. I really never thought of
it that way. Although you didnt quite condon what I
wrote (in that bitter letter) I was deeply moved by your
very clear understanding of my feelings at the time that
I wrote it, that was believe it or not, around the tenth one
that I wrote that I didnt tear up but the previous ones
all wound up the same way, so I said to myself that
if Im going to get a letter off to you, I might as well let
this go through, this and this only is why you failed to
hear from me prior to this. Ridiculous isnt it. I will be
expecting you the last week of this month but if you cant
make it, I will fully understand but in any event I
really dont want you to put yourself out of your way, there
are more things Im sure that are more important that
command your attention than coming up here just to see
me. It must be quite a feeling when your day is through
Miriam. Knowing that you did your very best to help others
as Christ did. You refuse to rest on any laurels. Its good
getting the feel of writing to you every week and I feel
so guilty when I couldnt get myself together and get a
letter off to you as I should have done but believe
me, I was so confused. God Bless you Miriam
Your Friend always with Love
Water E. Hayes