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and May told herself that she believed she would sell her soul that to be
if that would be to [sacrifice?] [luck?]
her assumed that her If a then happy again. She would not have
gone to the dance if she had had any excuse for staying at
home. The change from hope to the lack of it was very entire
with her. She did not stop to think that they were no worse off
in reality than they had been for some time. She was angry
with herself for apparently defining happiness [as?] money but
she excused herself as with the thought that it was not for herself
but for her father. She could find enjoyment in many things
that did not need money but his hard life had left him no
time to learn to get pleasure [?] out of [any?] that [way?] He had been
schooled to believe
success in business meant success in life & she realized then
bitter the thought ^must be that in spite of years of toil & drudgery
he was to be a failure at last the [glaring?] now to be at the
hall & May never [like?] a pattern than she did as she intend
it that night. The excitement & a [date?] inclination sort to hide to
it her troubles as long as possible gave unusual light &
animation to her face. She had made up her mind to
forget as much as she could & had a feeling that she didn't
care much what she did. Mr. Saunders was not at the
dance. Mabel told her that he had sprained his ankle &
and didn't go out of the house much as he wanted to & that
he wished Mabel to ask her if she would like to come up to their
house the next day. It seems funny to ask you that
Mabel said but of course you come to see me & [Jim?]