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cannibals, we are murderers - & we are unbelievers, & guilty of all
crimes. I am persuaded that the inhabitands of New Zealand
become a great & powerful natoin; when once the Light of direct
Revelation begins to dawn upon them. While I was in that…
& beautiful land, it appeared to me as if the Christian word was
situated in some intermediate state between Heaven and earth.
The happiness of the people who live in civilised society, and enjoy
the gospel is so far above that if heathen, that those who have
not seen the state of that people, who are wholly under the …..
union of the Prince of darkness can form no idea –
It appears to me to be a darkness that may be felt. When I
returned to New south Wales, and stood up in my own pulpit
and viewed my congregation, and compared our situation with
the above Islanders, I appeared as if I was not upon earth.
But we are not sensible of these infinite blessings because
we have enjoyed them from our birth and hope the foundation
stone is now laid in N. Zealand for the church of Christ, and the
building will be erected in time. My soul has been so

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Within one for the wickedness of some in this colony that I
Have been strongly tempted to leave it altogether. I have
Wished myself in my corner of the world, only let me get
from this present society. I have spoke of it several times
lately to Mrs M and told her that I wished to be off. Her ans[wer]
is, what will New Zealand do? What will the missionaries
at Otaheitedo? My burden is sometimes greater than I can bear.
We have need of patience in this miserable world: to look for
our reward in the next. We are sure not to have it here.
I have seen much of men and human things - few have had to
Contend for 20 years as I have done with men of all kinds, and
spotted with all crimes. I have seen human nature now
with its various colours, and I am led to think that the
……of hell will be greatly increased by all with……
…. Wicked. The wills
And affections of sinful men are at present to be ruled by an
Invisible agency, so that they cannot do all the evil they
Could. I see no other way for the Christians to act, share